Dill’s Update 02.15.17

My mom died a week ago Tuesday.  It doesn’t seem like there is much to say about running after typing that.  I ran a handful of times over the past few weeks.  Each run felt worse than the next.  I’m sore, I’m tired, I’m sad and I’m angry.  I’m going to bed early, yet I’m still sleepy all the time.   Here’s a funny thing though; I’m supposed to run the Austin marathon this Sunday.  I’m undertrained.  It’s supposed to be hot and storming, but I’m going to run anyway.  No matter how tough things with mom were over the pasts year, I managed to squeeze out my long runs. They were slow and they were ugly, but I made sure to get them done.  And so I will run.  One of the last things my mom said to me was “you can do anything you want to do.”  I will run Austin for her.  It will be ugly, it will be slow, it will involve crying, but this one’s for mom.  I’ll let you know how it goes.

I'm a running mom of two little girls, who is busy balancing life, work and marathon training. It's always training season for me because I'm on a quest to run a marathon in every state, while constantly striving to be the best runner I can be. Running has led me to some great adventures and I always have a good story to share!

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  1. Thank God a mother’s love never dies. Her belief in you doesn’t die, and neither do the lessons she taught you. I lost my mom three years ago, and I promise you it gets better. You’ll never “get over” losing her (and honestly, how could you with the impact she had on your life?), but you will get better at managing the pain. Give yourself permission to laugh, cry, celebrate, grieve, etc. through the streets of Austin and in the months ahead.

    We don’t know each other, but my heart aches for you. I wish you healing and strength.

  2. I’m so sorry. Her love for you is so strong in that picture, it’s brought tears to my eyes. What an amazing woman to have raised such an amazing woman like you.

  3. I’m so sorry about the loss of your mom. I hope you can pound out some of your anger and sadness on the streets of Austin.

  4. I am so sorry. My mom died when I was only 17 years old and it’s obviously something you never get over. I started running after she died and I so wish I had the gift of running to get me through some of the grief. I hope the marathon gives you a little of what your body and mind need right now. xoxo

  5. I am so sorry Dill- sending you my love and hoping for a race that brings you all those things that running has brought me at some of my lowest times- clarity, moments of joy and remembering, miles that let me cry it out, and a sense of purpose despite it all.