We’re a little under two weeks from a big sea change here; I’ll either be miraculously pregnant, or I’ll be training for Burning River.  The biggest change this week has been the shift in my mindset; I feel as if I’ve turned the corner from hoping and praying and moved on to envisioning a day at Burning River.  In many ways, I feel as if I’m just waiting out these more » Read more

This week was still a mixed bag in Clove-land.  I had some really fantastic experiences that I’m fired up about, but I also had some difficult stuff going on that really caused some emotional turmoil.  The treatment cycle has kind of gotten buried beneath all of that, but perhaps that’s a mixed blessing too.I was due to pace the 5:00 group at the Eugene Marathon, and it ended up fitting into more » Read more

I can’t bring myself to any build-up or false expressions of hope right now.  Cycle Two was unsuccessful and we are not pregnant.  In light of the events I witnessed in Boston this week, this is the least of my concerns.  I would love to tell our readers, and perhaps even myself, that I am still disappointed, but in the more than three years we have been trying to conceive, I more » Read more

This particular week started icky, got way better, and then went back down the tubes with a wicked bout of PMS on Friday.  And when I say wicked, I mean wicked.  It was the kind of PMS where you know you’re being a (rhymes with witch), but no matter what you do, you just can’t seem to stop yourself.  And the carbs – oh, the carbs.  When I wasn’t thinking more » Read more

Sheer and utter frustration.  That would sum up this one. Saturday, March 23:  19 easy road miles.  I actually meant to run with my neighborhood group, but was having misgivings since the follicles were growing so slowly.  Kind of felt like I should just be lying on the couch growing follicles.  But then my friend Scott said he was only doing part of the hard run, so that sounded like more » Read more

This week was a mixed bag.  Amazing running in the Death Valley desert, but disappointment at last week’s events and the way cycle two is going.  Just like we promised ourselves that we would treat the first month as a “practice round” so we didn’t get too disappointed, we are now reminding ourselves of how incredibly unlikely it is that we’ll get pregnant two months in a row.  This is more » Read more

Grrrrr.  That would sum up this week, though it appears to be on an upswing. As soon as I started feeling better from the symptoms of the hcg shot, I got that cold.  As soon as the cold started to get a bit better, I found out I was going to have to do a “booster” shot of hcg.  The cold got worse again before it got better, I had more » Read more

I was hopeful that once we got through the craziness of the weekend, things would slow down a bit.  One of the (few) great things about the hcg shot is that it does mark a one week reprieve from nightly shots, and it’s just nice to get a break from that.  I do, however, do a daily pregnancy test, which is part of a process called “testing out.”  Doctors do more » Read more

Heh.  I said I was going to tell you what it was like to balance running and infertility treatments – boy am I ever.  What a fun week. So the big news is that I was supposed to be headed to the airport right now to get a plane out of this icy dodge.  DB and I were headed down to Orlando to run the Princess Half Marathon with Gwen more » Read more