In the blogosphere it’s easy to portray the image that everything is like so great all the time. I am soooo happy and everything is perfect. All. The. Time.
While there is so much to be grateful for in all the Salty Bloggers’ lives, we’re all still human. Including me. To prove it (because I know you’ve all been secretly wondering) I want to share a (probably irrational) fear I have about my running.
I’ve been stuck at really close to the same level since 2007. That’s 5 years running almost the same race times. I admittedly ran many prs in 2011, but most were not particularly big. In fact, there’s one 5 mile race in which I ran 31:17 (2007); 31:25 (2009) and 31:16 (2011). How does one even manage to do that?! It drives me crazy. I managed to get my 5 mile pr down under 31 a few months later (finally and just barely!) but you get the idea.
As racing season starts ramping up while I start blimping up I find myself wondering if I’d be finally breaking through this 54-55 VDOT ceiling if I wasn’t pregnant. Would I be making those big PRs coach seemed to think were just around the corner?
Yeah, I know I’ve had two kids in that 5 year period and when I start whining about it again next year I’ll have had 3 kids in the frustrating 6 years of the 54-55 VDOT ceiling. But is it possible that someone can just get stuck like that and never make a breakthrough?
When I started running and then training and then racing I improved very quickly. Every season I made huge gains in fitness and ran big PRs. I know that this levels off and new breakthroughs and PRs become harder to come by and I suppose it makes sense that it would happen at this level. But you’d think with hard work I’d be able to make another big leap. Waaa! Why not?
I realize as I write this the one thing I haven’t been able to do is to train with consistency. A year on, a year off and a year on is not enough to make the big leaps I’m looking for. Right? But as I get older and worn down by three little ones will I ever make the breakthroughs I hope to?