Less than a week away from race day. On paper, I messed up my taper. I ended up taking the first three days of the week off and had one final ART session to assist in healing my foot troubles. Truth be told though, I’m not sure how much my foot actually hurts or if I am just projecting my anxiety onto my foot! So, as hard as it may be, I’ve been focusing on just trying to self regulate. Taking lots of deep breaths. Not worrying about the time I will run next week. And not caring about how much running I even got in this week.
It helped to look back at my online running log. The take-a-way? I’ve logged lots of miles in the last few years. And I noticed a pattern of phantom pain when it’s close to race day (no matter the distance). I’m an anxious person naturally so when a big event looms over my head, the anxiety increases. Running typically helps control my anxiety, except when there is an unknown event. Yes, I have completed a marathon before. But I have never made attempt to run the whole thing. I think that is what scares me.
So, it’s been helpful to gain this awareness and try to focus less on running and more on basic self regulation, which includes breathing exercises, positive self talk, visualization, and heightened body awareness.
How the week played out:
Wednesday: Off with ART session
Thursday: 20 minutes easy, no pain
Friday: 21 minutes easy, no pain
Saturday: 60 minutes on trails with no pain, just a bit awkward feeling
Sunday: Biked in the morning with my boyfriend and with Salty on her run. Enjoyed the chats and the weather. Ran 40 minutes in the evening at sunset. Finally was able to feel less awkward and more in control.
Total: 2 hours 21 minutes running and some easy biking