I’m going to log again. I swear! But before I do, I figured I better tell you where I am with running.
I’ve been running these last few months, sometimes even quite a bit. But I felt like I was a broken record — I’m not ready to train for anything, but I still enjoy running, bla bla bla. I wondered if anyone could possibly get anything out of my log? Who else runs 40-50 miles a week just for the hell of it? Who else feels like she’s in some weird running limbo between training for something and not, but kinda wanting to, but kinda not?
I’ve considered training for a fall marathon. I’ve reconsidered it. I’ve considered training for shorter races. I’ve considered continuing to not train. I still don’t know. I’m not sure how to know if I’m ready or if I ever will be? Do I feel rusty and slow because of my age, because I abused my body by overtraining, or is it just a hump I’d need to get over by reintroducing a structured training plan?
But then there’s the question of if I want to commit. My kids are getting to those driving-them-to-all-the-activities ages. They’re starting to have goals and interests that I can help them pursue. I also have other things I want to do with myself. Can I train again without getting sucked in to the point of neglecting this other stuff?
I think if I do decide to train again, my main goal would be to keep running in perspective and subordinate to the other things in my life. That might be the least objectively exciting running goal ever articulated, but I think it would be critical for me to stay emotionally and physically healthy and enjoy running. I also think I’d need a coach that appreciated this goal and who was equally committed to helping me achieve it.
So that’s really it. I’ve run mostly 40-50 mile weeks since I last left you and just running, nothing major. No workouts beyond the occasional strides or fartlek. I’ve mostly enjoyed running, save for a rough patch a few weeks ago. We took our eight-day trip to Disney World straddling the last two weeks, so I’ll be back with my log detailing those weeks.
But in the meantime, I’m glad to be back.
How have you decided to return to training for something after a long time away from it?