Pick Me up at Target, Please

Illinois Target Store

Never has a tan concrete exterior and a hot asphalt parking lot seemed more appealing. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Pick me up at Target, please.

It’s what I should have said to someone as I was heading out for my morning 10.5 mile run. But honestly, I did not think it was going to be a problem. It was my final run of my 52nd year.

All I expected was a lot of introspection, retrospection, and celebration of the end of another year. That is so NOT what happened.

By the time I reached the second mile out of nowhere came tons of negative thoughts that ranged from what I could’ve, should’ve, would’ve, didn’t, did, with a few failures thrown in. By the time I reached mile four I was almost on my knees in tears. I knew I was in trouble when I reached mile five on the top of the Isle ofPalms connector and the view that always takes my breath away only reminded me of a dream deferred. Yikes!

Sunrise at Isle of Palms - June 2007

You know it’s bad when you look at this and long for Target. (Photo credit: willia4)

So at the top of the bridge I stopped. That’s right. I stopped on the shoulder and looked down to the marsh and said a silent prayer. I am not sure how long I stood there, but when I started home I thought about the Target store. I could run to the parking lot and hopefully find someone I knew to drive me home. That was the plan and it sounded like a pretty good one.

When I got to the road to turn into Target I realized something. Target is a bit less than 2.5 miles from my house. Less than 2.5 miles. That means that in the midst of my self inflicted pity party I covered eight miles!

So did I need to ask someone to pick me up at Target? No.

Couldn’t I, the self-proclaimed poster child for the 50+ and fabulous walk, run, hop, crawl, or electric slide 2.5 miles to my house? Yes and that is exactly what I did. I am pleading the 5th on how much crawling and electric sliding was involved.

As soon I as passed Target all of those horrible thoughts disappeared. Just like magic. It was not the run I imagined, but during it I showed real courage.Yes, in my own quiet way I exhibited true raw unfiltered courage on demand.  So glad that I did not ask anyone to pick me up at Target and today of all days I really wanted to.

Again, not the run I was planning but not a bad way to end a year. Happy birthday to me. I done well.

“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I’ll try again tomorrow.” 

― Mary Anne Radmacher

Have you ever had one of those runs? 

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I eat miles for breakfast, or occasionally for a snack later in the day. Self proclaimed 50+ and fabulous poster child, US Army vet, college professor, avid runner, yoga enthusiast, guest columnist, and I've used Olay since I was 17 so they should use me in at least one of their ads!
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  1. Allspice says:

    Happy Birthday! What a great birthday run it turned out to be. I’ve noticed that since I turned 50, I’ve been much more introspective on my birthdays, and sadly there are so many things I wish I could go back and change. Oh well, onward!

  2. Mint Mint says:

    Happy birthday! And yes, I’e definitely had runs like that. Good job getting it done and moving on from it.

  3. Jen says:

    Isn’t it amazing all the places that our minds can go on a single run? Good or bad, this will be a memorable one for you and thanks for sharing your experience. It’s great that you ended on a high note and can take pride in that. Happy birthday to you!

  4. M says:

    Happy birthday to you! Yes, you did well :) I think we all have those runs, and sometimes they show up more frequently … it’s a phase, I guess. Good job accepting the difficulty and finding a way to keep going, and not beating yourself up too much!

  5. Catnip Catnip says:

    Happy birthday! It’s so amazing how much control the mind has over teh body and those negative thoughts can be so debilitating sometimes. :( Good for you for taking control back!

  6. Salty Salty says:

    Happy birthday!! Your posts are always good for a little inspiration and a good laugh. When I saw the title, I knew it would be a good one! Haha. Hope you have the best year yet!

  7. Chipotle Chipotle says:

    Thank you. The year started off pretty rough so I hope it picks up soon.

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