I can’t believe it’s already been 10 weeks since I had my little cutie. She is just a dream baby and I feel so lucky to be her mother. I look at her and my other two and realize how fortunate I am to have such a healthy happy family! Perhaps this is the 8.5 hours of sleep I got on Friday night talking. I have to say, that was pretty awesome. Most nights we’re up to 5.5 hours, but for whatever reason I’ve had a couple of longer stretches, that being the best. As for my progress …
Since my ablation I’ve had a difficult few days, struggling with bouts of intense anxiety. I’ve felt very tense and unable to relax much of the time. However, today was a good day and I realized sometimes it’s all in how you look at it. I don’t mean to minimize the physiological aspects of anxiety and depression. While there are some things we can do that contribute to our mental well-being, sometimes our bodies take over and make it extremely difficult to get out of the funk or the negative thought pattern rut without some serious help. Knowing that, I am by no means saying I am out of the woods yet, but I feel noticeably better today. Most days since the procedure I’ve woken up feeling tense and anxious, but today I didn’t. I spent the morning playing with the big kids outside. We even made their first real snowman. My son rolled the middle and top snowballs all by himself and was so amazed!
I had so much fun with them. For once lately it was not interrupted by negative thoughts. I wasn’t even freaking out that I hadn’t yet gone out for my run for the day! Once the kids were down for their afternoon naps I headed out and I found some much needed clarity.
When I set out for my run I started thinking about the state of things. I realized that it’s ok if my heart is healing and I can’t hit faster paces for a while – it’s temporary. I know my heart rate will likely be higher than normal for a few weeks to a few months, so I allowed myself to walk up the big hills on my route if necessary. But instead, I cruised right up no problem. On my way back, I felt so good I opened up my stride and cruised down the hills a little faster than usual and kept that momentum going, picking up the pace a bit for the last two miles of my six mile run.
With just .5 miles to go, I started to calculate my mileage for the week in my head and something occurred to me: before the ablation I expected to not exercise for 2-3 weeks after the procedure and here I was finishing up 26.2 miles for the week just 11 days after the ablation! Wow! And I also decided that instead of focusing on what could go wrong or what I fear, I decided to believe my heart will be stronger than ever once it heals. Yes, I don’t think it’s a coincidence I’m feeling better today.
And with that, here’s how this amazing first week running post-ablation went!
Tue: 1.7 miles walking and running on the treadmill (avg 12:56). I only had 20 minutes, which was probably a good thing.
Wed: 4.12 walking and running on the tm (avg 11:39)
Thu: 4.35 (avg 10:20) walked for the first 5:00, ran 35:00 and then walked 5:00.
Fri: 5 (avg 9:31) This time I just ran the entire time.
Sat: 5 outside with no watch.
Sun: 6 outside with no watch.
Total: 26.2 (Coincidence?)
As for my post-baby body, I am not going to weigh myself again for a couple of weeks. With the anxiety and potential for depression, I don’t need anything else to get me down. I will be back with photos and an update, but it just might be in 2-3 weeks.