Rookie Mistake: Keep on Running When Life Spins out of Control

Nutmeg

Meg has written 31 posts on Salty Running.

I'm a married, step-mother, the 4th of 5 kids. I'm livin' the dream as a manager in retail, putting that English degree to great use. Oh, and I'm sarcastic.

Spinning top, bought in Prague

When life starts spinning, keep running. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

As the resident beginner, I’m here to bring other beginners this cautionary tale. Over the last few months running has really become an important part of my life. I’m not sure I really appreciated how much running has improved my life and provided an escape from the every day hustle and grind. I learned how much I truly under-appreciated running last week when life exploded. At a time when I  really needed to run, I skipped out on doing it.  That was the rookie mistake that I better remember the next time life turns around and goes upside down.

It all started when, with very little notice, my work life changed. (As you might recall, I work in retail.) Don’t worry, I didn’t get fired.  I was put into a temporary position for about 6 weeks while the store manager is out of the store on her own temporary assignment.  The new spot brought an immediate schedule change and a change in responsibilities.  The new schedule is not my ideal when it comes to how I like to run.  Most days, I have to be at the store by 6 a.m.  Yes, I could wake up super early to keep my wake-up-and-run routine.  I REALLY like that routine…but, I have to add a new running routine to the list of changes.

However, last week, I didn’t do that.  I got a couple runs in and then lost the mojo.  The new position is a lot more physical as I oversee the shipment team and do the moving around of displays.  At quitting time, I just wanted to veg out for the rest of the day, but I did try to get a run in.  A few days in, though, other things were thrown at me and I found it easier to talk myself out of hitting the paths.

Some of you may recall that I was on the DL this summer when my ovary decided to become a monster.  This was a needed break. After all, the state of my ovaries has to be high on your list of concerns.  Since then, my OB/GYN has been following-up with me to check on the cyst.    The first time I went to have it re-checked, it had gone down in size by about 1/2.  WOO-HOO!  AWESOME!  And then…

Consumed Way Past Expiration

This can is about the diameter of my cyst. (Photo credit: Cycrolu)

After the job change, I went for my most recent ovary follow-up. Bad news. The cyst had grown almost back to the original size.  It seems that I’m not very good at making babies, but I’m damn good at growing cysts.  After the ultrasound revealed this, we talked about what’s next.  Badder news. Surgery is in my future.  In that discussion, my doctor gave me the heads-up that removing the cyst did mean the slight risk of the ovary coming out with it.  Of course, all I heard was the part about losing the ovary, not the part about it being a slight risk.  After the appointment, I tried to be very matter-of-fact about it, but I then started to go downhill to the dumps.  I was depressed.

A healthy Oswald, ready to pounce.

And no, the story of my week from you-know-where isn’t over yet. That same day, our cat Oswald had to have unplanned surgery.  He got into some string and it got tangled up inside him.  He only started to act sick the night before we took him to the vet, so we were surprised to find out that he was only hours away from sepsis setting in.  He had the surgery and stayed overnight at the vet.  All is fine, but that day, everything was too much for me.

I was overwhelmed. So overwhelmed I bagged the rest of my runs. But this just made everything worse.

Beginners, listen to me. If I had a redo of last week, I would go run.  Running would have been the best thing for me.  The physical benefits and the mental break would have helped out so much.  Also, I have my first race coming up and I need to know I have it in me to not get derailed.  Finally, with impending surgery, the more fit I go into it, the better recovery will be, and the sooner I’ll be back in my running shoes.

Veteran runners, how does running help you cope when life seems to spin out of control? What have been some of your biggest rookie mistakes?

 

 

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9 Responses to “Rookie Mistake: Keep on Running When Life Spins out of Control”

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  1. J. says:

    What a crappy week, but glad you found a lesson in it:) I’m also glad your cat is okay!

  2. Diane H says:

    Nutmeg,
    I am relating to your post SO Much!!! The last 2 months have been craptastic around our home and I’ve realized 4 years into my running that it is one of the only things keeping me sane right now!! However, a few years ago, I would have bagged all my runs too. I think the more you run, the easier it is to remember how good you feel afterwards. With experience you realize that a run isn’t something you HAVE to do, but something you WANT to do. A couple years ago I could never have imagined looking forward to a long run. Now I do, just to process the gajillion things in pinging around in my brain!

  3. Leah says:

    Internet hug! ::hug:: What a week. Realizing that running has such an important part of your mental and physical well-being is the first step to getting it back in your priority list, and that’s huge! Here’s hoping your luck turns around and you’re able to change the things you can.

  4. I can relate soooooo much. I left life get really chaotic the last few months and instead of using running as a release, I let it slide. I need to proactive about my running for my sanity. Thanks for the reminder!

  5. Salty Salty says:

    One of the best things about running when life goes nutso is the sense of power and control I feel. When all else fails, it reminds me that I am strong and capable of so much and fortunate to have good health. It sounds cheesy and it’s really hard to articulate how impactful running is at times like these, but it is!

    I love that this post and Cinnamon’s birthday post are on the same day. I hope one day soon you feel the same way: that running is the greatest gift you ever gave yourself.

    Hope this week is miles better all around :)

  6. Vanilla says:

    Sending you positive vibes from your neighboring town. Hope you’re ok!

  7. Sassafras says:

    Nutmeg, I’m sorry you had such an awful week! Running helps me stay sane, but it is really easy to get overwhelmed and have that be the thing that goes. Like J., I’m glad you managed to find a lesson in your terrible, horrible, no good week. Hoping next week is much better for you!

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